You Gotta Love It

So I've been sitting around having time to think which sometimes is not a good thing in my case. There are things we go through in life that's so traumatic it takes a lot to come out of it or get over it. Some mask it or cover it up with things, people, makeup, hobbies, or they can't cover it up and they wear their depression like a garment. I myself have never had counseling for the many things that people would consider traumatic. In the end I became very angry, I had a bad temper and I would explode at the slightest thing. After having children I've learned to mask it yet again, by controlling my anger but now burying myself in my children's life. This is my way of looking in the mirror to have a conversation with someone because I feel I can write and no one will see my tears just read my words, I don't have to hear the judgement I can just release and grey over it. Yes I've been my own counselor because trust is far and non existent to me. I hate more

Have you ever cried silent tears, the tears that are in the dark, the tears that leave a mark. Have you had a painful smile, the masked on smerk, the fakest smile that it hurts, Have you ever stood in the rain and didn't feel one drop, almost as if Gods love just stopped, Have you ever screamed and never been heard, trying to speak and not get out one single word. Have you ever lost your way in the light trying to move mountains with all your might. Have you ever got knocked down so hard that you won't get up because of the scars.  Have you ever got to the end of a book to find the page missing from the story.... Is she dead, does the hero get the glory. Truth is there is no end to the story, it's not yet written. Through pain and turmoils, the sweat and blood through ever bad memory and every knock down, you keep bruising my ego, pride and trying to take my smile but there is no way in hell I'm going to let you break my crown!

You are going through all kinds or turmoil and you are thinking, "God you said this year was going to be better than my last?" You know what God is saying?  Don't try to come out of your suffering to soon.  He doesn't put a date on what you are going through, you do. Weather the storm. God won't put you through more than you can handle. And if your going through a lot, you can handle a lot. He will never leave you nor forsake you just keep your trust in Him and not what is going on in front of you. Trust that He's got you covered, His blood still works and it always will. So today when you wake up to bad news, feeling down, sick in your body or feeling like you just can't go on just remember, He went through worst for me and He did it to cover me. It still works!

You are a single mom or a wife or a business woman or a stay at home mom or a single woman that got her stuff together but no matter what you do, you are beat down.  Physically, mentally, emotionally and sometimes spiritually.  You try to smile through this hurt, you try to keep your life moving forward for the sake of your family or for the sake of your sanity but something really does snap in us.  When a woman is fed up is a strong statement. We don't begin to hate the world, we don't become angry, we become very determined. We have this ”prove you wrong" or "try me and see" determination that boils up when we are fed up.  It takes a lot to break a woman, weak girls break, but women that have been through some things, we bend, not break.  We will cry, wore away the tears and keep pushing as if nothing ever happened.  We will pray that God keeps us, not you because we know what we will and can do without God. Women stay strong, know that you are not the only one

Welcome to new and improved Blog site of Tsahai Arnett!  There will be many things to chat about, questions to answer, motivational post and venting sessions.  Occasionally there will be crazy videos of my outrageous family as well as tutorial sessions for business and natural health.  I can't wait to get started! I hope you are ready to take this journey with me. So since the last time I've posted which was in 2015, Akira has graduated high school, both of the little girls are in school, Jeremiah's football season is over...for now, we have been through gymnastics, cheer leading, school suspensions, church changes, family fall outs, and so much more.  That is just the beginning of this colorful incite to what I plan to share. Stay tuned because you are not going to want to miss any of these post.

As we roll into the last month of the year and people start with the "New Year's resolution" bull, I take this time to reflect on how I started this year off and how I'm ending it. I had goals I accomplished and some I didn't complete but am I in a better place for myself to begin this New Year,  yes, yes I am. So with that being said I plan to keep the motivation to be better than I was this year and be greater next year.  Make your vision plain and move in it the only thing holding you back is you. Have a blessed rest of the year and keep pushing.